In my life 2009 was a year of loss. That doesn't mean it was all bad, but life has its ups and downs. I brought in the new year with a new relationship and spent the next 4 months being in love, which is always amazing. My high school experience came to an end and so did my perfect relationship and everything else I thought was wonderful in my life. My sisters and I lost a grandmother, and my mom lost the magic in having her own mom. It was one of the most difficult times in my family's life.
When summer came I tried to spend as much time with my friends as I possibly could because I knew I would be going back and forth from Abilene to Waco most of the time. Eventually my friends and I had to say our goodbyes and start to college. At first it was a great experience moving into an apartment with my best friend but it didn't last.
I personally went through a rough time in my life which led to me dropping my classes and figuring out what my heart really wanted. It wasn't an easy time for me, there was a lot of pain involved and I was struggling to make the right decisions. Of course my family took it hard because I am the last child and they want me to succeed and do things the right way, but everyones life is different, and with them not knowing what I was going through made it hard for everyone to understand. (Some people reading this blog may want to ask me about this time in my life, and I'm really not comfortable talking about it at all so I ask that you PLEASE respect my own personal privacy and just don't ask. What I've already said is the most info I want to give.)
Everyone goes through life not wanting to have regrets, but deep down everyone has their own. I look back on everything that has happened in my life this past year and yes there are some things I now wish I could take back, but as Robert Frost says, "In THREE WORDS I can sum up everything I've learned about life: IT GOES ON." So my biggest New Years Resolution is to live in the moment, soak up every amazing thing going on around me, and to remember that life really does go on.
I'm finally at a point in my life where I'm at peace with the choices I've made in the past and I'm ready for what's to come in the future. Family hasn't always been the most important thing in my life but now I'm so thankful I'm closer to my family and we're all together, and I know no matter what happens my family will always be there for me and we will always have each other.
"Life isn't measured by how many breaths you take,
it's measured by how many moments take your breath away."
BRING ON 2010!
